Here we go..........

It’s fairly early in the morning, winter here in New Zealand, there is a distinct chill in the air .
I am sitting alone in my bedroom on the side of my bed. Hair disheveled, and shoulders slumped. I can feel that creeping effect in my head just behind my forehead of the coming “shadows” A nauseous feeling is also growing in my stomach and my mouth is dry. I sit very still focusing on the feeling in my head. The feeling of tightening, numbness with a slow methodic throb. Yes here it comes. I prime the Injector with Imagran find a fatty piece of thigh, hold the injector to my leg and press the button. There is no feeling I wait 5 second’s then remove and check there is a spot of blood. I sit motionless I feel the rising of the pain within my head coming now from invisible parts of my head culminating in a single point of rising pain. I am scared maybe it won’t work this time?, maybe I have become immune? The pain continues to rise for several minutes then slowly very slowly from somewhere , (I am still distracted by the single point of pain ) down lower in my head a coursing seems to be coming up as if there are pipes now directly connected to the point of pain. They pour on, then as if a door is being closed the pain dissipates. There is ever so brief euphoric moment then I breath out heavily and in. Its over. At that point I say a short prayer to whoever it was who spent their time in a lab developing Imagran Thank You